Loving You Feels Like Waiting Alone

You say you're going out, give me a time. I'll hold my

breath, tell myself I'll be fine. Hours go by, the clock won't

move. Every minute feels like I'm losing you. Something clicks when

you walk out the door. I hate who I am in those moments,

I swear. I'm waiting all night, light still on. Loving you feels

like waiting alone. You come home laughing, playing around, like my heart

hasn't been breaking down. I never meant to hurt you. God knows it's

true, but you don't see what this is doing to me too.