Thirty Seconds of Silence

I kissed him in the supply closet while his wife coded three doors down. The alarms were

screaming. My hands were shaking. He's the attending. I'm just a nurse. She's my patient.

We've been sneaking around for months and nobody knows. The thing is, I'm the one who

caught her medication error first. I could've said something earlier. Maybe she wouldn't

be crashing right now. He ran out to lead the code. Left me standing

there with his taste still on my lips and her blood pressure dropping. I walked in thirty

seconds later like nothing happened. Pushed the crash cart. Did compressions.

Saved her. But here's what keeps me up at night. Did I hesitate those thirty seconds on